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Mass Communication! Available at: TP, Ngee Ann P. and SP I think I'll love that course. Advertising, script-writing, graphics design, all rolled into one. I MUST get into it. I have a target now.

" 音を無くした blueの世界を ただ彷徨い歩き続けて 色を無くした 哀れなアタシは 折れた羽で胸を突く" -Mika Nakashima I'm so happy it's Labour Day tomorrow. How can I not? I never dread a holiday. What's more, I'm so tired of school. I can fill my house with all my angst. Lately I'm always in a pissed mood. I'm sick of waking up early in the morning, abandoning the cooling morning and my sleep, to go to a place which I dread going. I hate having to act like I'm in a good mood. If I don't, I'll get impressions like, "WTF, attitude si bei bad la". Why should I care, actually? I just wish graduation is tomorrow. Now I understand why Lao Po would sometimes wish of a new place to start anew, where nobody knows you. Adults frequently say, "the golden period of your life is when you're a teenager". If that's the case, why on earth are we wasting away our "golden period" in a school? It's ironic - the most nostalgic period of our life is the period w...

Went Orchard (Again!) with Lau Lau ,D2 and Big Bird. Got my flats. Didn't get my waist belt, once again. Guess my mood is drenched by the sinking truth that I have to go searching for a belt again. I would love to go shopping, but I can't buy all the other nice clothes I see! Bother. Dear2 got herself a pair of cool booties (ankle-boots), which is really a good deal at $20, orginal price being $70. It suits her, and she managed to decrease our height difference by a lot. LOL. The most...amusing(??) part of the day has to be when we ate our ice cream. We bought vanilla cones from Mac's roadside store and were eating happily while walking in front of Paragon, until the ice cream started to melt uncontrollably. Heck! That's not the worse yet. While we try to solve our sticky crisis, we spotted some charity-drive peeps up ahead, so I told PCJ, "Eh, if one of those guys come up to us, let's tell them, 'Can't you see we're in a crisis?!'" Right ...

There isn't a day that I'm not pissed, but today has to be the most ducked up day of the year, for now. I'm sure there's always more - I'm suay. My suayness can become the reason why people read my blog. Maybe they can read my entries and go,"Hey what the heck! This person is so freaking suay but she doesn't want to commit suicide so why the hell am I thinking of jumping down the Changi control station?!" I will become a lifesaver! Yay! Not. Good things: Holy Mother let us watch a few videos during Geography lesson, two of which were funny, especially the first one. Ate ice cream to 降溫(?). Bad/SuayDLS things: Freaking hot in a unresponsive and bad mood. Poor Or Cair had to tahan my 怨氣. The -insert all vulgarities you can here and repeat it infinitely- shitful little chihuahua blew up the whole absence from her lesson thing. 女兒 headache AGAIN! Came home, tried switching on the computer monitor, does not switch on. Duck. Monitor OK, but ducking Internet...

"5000マイル走って　息を切らして アドレナリン100リットル　5体全てフル稼働" - Last Alliance I've got my D.E dress. Whooping $55.90. Needs a belt. Maybe a pair of black heels? Went shopping with Dear Dear yesterday. Legs are ducking pain. Thanks to that moronic ticko, who forced us to run 2.4 on Friday. Good thing I cheated - can't imagine how dead I'll be if I didn't. [digression] While the rest had the fun of playing floorball, Nicholas and I had to run 2.4. Finished badly today though i didn't play foul at all. 1740. Mr Ang told me its not right since there are heavier peeps who passed. Hey, PLEASE, zxn cheated throughout the last run months ago just to pass. I didn't. Nick didn't run the entire roundabout at the general office twice, while the rest, all girls, played cheat too. So much for integrity. Oh god, for Christ's sake, you failed means you failed. Don't drag your self-righteousness into the whole thing, it doesn't change the fact that you failed your NAPFA. ...

私わ、何が欲しい？ わからない。でももしかしたら、回答？ To-do list for tomorrow: English cyber-school work Buy 黒執事 #1 @ Kino Check if Girlfriend's in stock! V.IMPT! Boyfriend v. sad! Revise Chemistry/Physics/E Maths. I've decided. I must get an A1 for E Maths.

"思い出はたくさんあるけど 振り向けばそれだけ遅れてしまいそうだから 闇雲にその道を進んだ 明日を祈りながら" - Maaya Sakamoto Crazy animal day. First, the toad went mad and tore up Dawn's History worksheet, just because she copied some points from PCJ. Heard from Dawn she made my dear PCJ cut her nails by Monday. Diao. The moment couldn't have been more ruined by that. Then the fat-tastic, barking mad dog came and confront those who did not attend her lesson last Friday. She unleashed all her unhappiness and anger on Or Cair, thinking that she's quiet and is easier to bully. Huating beeyatch. Give our names to the discipline master, I'm not really bothered. Just because you're a dog that wears humans' clothes does not make you any less dog-ish. I have no respect for you, rabies-fied mad dog. Went Novena with OC after that bitch's class. Ate at Donut Factory! Had a double chocolate and a spicy cheese. It's nice, really, but many said it's weird. I'm so glad it's Friday. I can finally s...

Went home at 1.50PM today! The earliest in a long while, perhaps months. Turned on the computer when I got home and I am greeted with an IM from my dear 老婆! She's stuck in school (though in the Computer lab) for English remedial. We crapped a while and then went to play at ViWawa.com together. Played Sushido and won! I must say I believe in beginner's luck. Today's horoscope reading is accurate again. God, why is it so freaking accurate these days? Sometime's I really think there's such thing called 必然. I'm being really slack in studying these days and various people had suddenly decided to tell me to not be complacent or just asking how's my revision going. Anyway, been eating Marigold's fruit jellies these few days. The first time I ate it, I found the jelly rather bland. Told my Dad and he said, "something's wrong with your tongue." Yea, probably right. That time OC and I went Food Addict I said the Lemon Tea is bland, even after pouring...

Today seemed really long. As if it's two instead of one day. Felt a multitude of emotions. The horoscope prediction in MyPaper today is super accurate for me. 魚與熊掌不能兼得. I might have to make a choice, but I hope it'll not be soon, best if that day would never come. On a happier note, during Maths class today, I was sleeping when I felt something on my shoulder. Thinking it's jL putting her hand there, I ignored it for a while until I smelt something fishy. I woke up to find out that that something was an unbrella! The mastermind wasn't Dear Dear but that crazy guy, Zong Qin! LOL. It's good I woke up in time before Dear2 took a photo. Or did I? Now that I think about it, is it really a happy thing? Lol. Went to have ice cream with my fellow Pangi Chye Ja (PCJ). We were discussing about the Dining Etiquette and the conversation steered towards Uncle BHB. [Paraphrased] PCJ: I hope Uncle BHB asks her . PSB: I think she'll use her thunder thighs to kill him. PCJ: How ...

Bloody. Hot. Today. Rather pissed after school. Definitely because my temper rose with the temperature. I hate waiting with the heat to add more trouble. Very vulgar today. Must stop it. Ate chocolate waffle from some bakery behind school. The waffle is crispy, very nice! But it's ruined because the chocolate was tasteless. No actually, it was bitter instead. I don't like bitter chocolate. My right shoulder is very 酸.

I hate and love it when a series ends - Harry Potter, for instance. "The Sweet Far Thing" is so bittersweet and I'm a sucker for bittersweet endings. Cheers! To bittersweet endings. No actually, Harry Potter's end was bittersweeter, "The Sweet Far Thing" is cruel! But I love it all the same. Call me a sadist, will you?

"今日という日を素直に生きたい" This day we call today, I’d like to live honestly. -Utada Hikaru Almost late again today! But wasn't, so that's OK, what's more we managed to skip assembly - not that there's much difference...Oh, except us being able to sneak food into our mouths more easily than being in the parade square. What were we eating? Hershey's Kissables. Niceeee, especially the crispy shell. 'Kay whatever. During Maths class today, our dear, digressing-as-always but quite-nice teacher, Mr Tan, told us his experience of a birthday celebrated at a certain university in Singapore. His "friends" would throw him into a dirty pond as a birthday...surprise. He said it's super dirty. Nice friends. Oh yea, had two disappointments today. I thought I could miss the Chemistry retest next week since I have dental appointment on Tuesday, but the test is on Wednesday. The day-off in lieu of normal Chinese paper is on the same day as my dental appointment = ...

"あなただけを友と呼ぶ". I'm now in love with Hikki's "Prisoner of Love". And "Last Friends". And Ueno Juri. Went to the library yesterday, just like I said, and only got my hands on "The Sweet Far Thing". I couldn't find "Book of a Thousand Days" despite the catalogue saying that it's not on loan. BBQ. Good thing "The Sweet Far Thing" was on the shelf. I can imagine how pissed I would be to spend a wasted trip. After tuition today, went to get E Maths 10-Year series with Krys, who needed some dividers. Couldn't find the goddamn dividers for a while because the "busy" worker just threw us an "Here" and walked off. Here where?! The 10YrSeries was easier to find. Phew. Why am I blogging about such mundane things?

I'm so going to the library later. Two books which I want to read are at AMK Library! Whoots! OK, I better get going like, NOW.

Hello! I bring to you part one of the Bob's online window-shopping results! Received members' newsletter from ASOS.com (which was in the Junk folder?!) so I decided to waste some time looking through their dresses and shoes. What the hell - they're pretty, cool and expensive. Freaking expensive. Now I know why Rebecca Bloomwood from the Shopaholic series just can't seem to stop her credit card from hitting the limit. This is my favourite! Simple and clean. Black at that too. Not too revealing, fits a prom night. This Long-Named dress isn't that suitable for Singaporeans since it's so bloody warm here, but I like such dresses, so there. Then there's this satin little black dress . Simple and clean, plus the front details are really attractive. Now, shoes!! Wah, all I can say is: crazy . That's not the one I saw at Pazzion, for sure. There are a few nice ones, my favourite being this . Why are all their shoes' heels so high?! The pumps are nice too...

"涙 だけが 私の傍にいる" - BoA Happy things: Yesterday was a fun day-out. Today is a Ice Lemon Tea day. Shitful things: Failed Chemistry test by half a mark. Failed Physics test again (3 in a row! If life is a game of slots I would've won millions) Caught in the middle of arguments After listing out the happy and crappy things that happened in the week, I realise it's not as shitty as I thought. What's not-so-encouraging is that the shittiest thing had to happen today, on the last day of the week. Kao, cannot enjoy my weekend! Anyway. I challenge you, Failure, to a one-on-one! I won't lose to you anymore. Surrender or be chopped into pieces. 私わ負けさせない! Using the computer had made me more and more unintelligent. Directly or indirectly, I don't know. All I know is that I'm not gonna fail again. I just realised, today's outing (okay, so I broke my promise saying I'm not gonna have a day-out) is a sort-of GHC outing. All the members were present - for erm, tw...

Went Bishan's Food Junction again! And even ate two vanilla cones with rainbow rice topping. "Itadaki Street" is fun! I very vaguely know how to play the game (it's something like Monopoly, though more complicated). The representing characters are also very cute! Mine is Ashe, who's always tocuhing her nose (trademark action).

"大切な人を守る為に 違う誰かを傷つけてる 犯した過ち 気付かぬ人々は全てを許されるの?" - L'Arc~en~Ciel J-Rock, er, rocks! I'm listening to L'Arc~En~Ciel's album "KISS". Niceee! "Sunadokei" is my current favourite. It's a bit reminiscent of "DAYBREAK'S BELL"'s style, but softer. Today was craaaaap. For real. Enough crap at school and I get home to more shit. More tomorrow. Time to sleep! (But before that I'll listen to the songs I've just transferred to my phone.) Bye bye!

[random]WTH. Unbelievable. I've never used "Papercut" as a blog entry title?![/random] Back from shopping at Bugis! Well, it's not actually shopping for me, but rather an eating-trip. I'm glad Dear Dear finally got her cap. It's not that weird la. I don't like the blue of the dress though. Anyway, got to eat my beloved Raspberry Dark Chocolate Chip but...WTH? It wasn't dark anymore it became vanilla ice cream. The last time I ate it it was chocolate ice cream. Ate the chicken sausage from Doong Dae Mun(?)! Nice! And like always, when there's a milkshake-machine-equipped Mos Burger, I bought a Cranberry Delight. OK, the woman gave me too much rice flakes and very little cranberry juice. Accomplishment of the day? Finally bought a metal eyelash curler! Cheap at that too. Watched "Vampire Knight" yesterday. Didn't really like it because Kaname lost his detailedness. Too much exposure to the manga? The animation wasn't as good as I h...

Finally another week ended. Lazy to blog for the past few days so I shall backtrack in this post. WEDNESDAY Late for school 'cause I continued waiting for Dear Dear even though she wasn't coming school (Didn't see her message). Wanted to go Mac's for breakfast before going to school since do so will guarantee that we won't have to run. Too slow in deciding, so had to run in the end. The busybody midget came and squeak at us when we told him "We don't want to run." Mr Tan once said that our school is democratic and we have a choice, run or not, the difference is just one demerit point more. Obviously the midget thinks he's the king of the world and went in his gay tone, "Who says? Must I say ma!" Go *beep* yourself la. THURSDAY Went Admiralty to have lunch with my dear GHC members (excluding Or Cair, who always says this-place is so far!!). The mushroom spaghetti had a price hike, a portion-reduction but a quality-improvement for the soup....

jL: Yo yo yo LING in th house . ==> Babii forced me to say this T.T Me: Aiyo, easily influenced then say la! jL: Ehhh what ? You forgot I'm th ever so obedient Dear2 ??? (P.S. refer to previous conversation) Me: When you typed "obe", I thought you were going to say "obese". OMG fatty. jL: I dk what to say you fatty bom bom. You den obese lohs !!! Remember th time you broke th chair and th poor manager kena bomb by th jap food lady??? And th two "security guards"! Hahaha! Me: (biang eh her story damn long) Ahem. Still so nice call her lady? She auntie liao lor! jL: Ahhh !!! I suddenly so hungry sia! No energy to type liao T.T Give me food luhs =/ No luhs actually i jus want go eat spaghetti ): Me: -gives imaginary choc fudge cake- Better? (See my story so short) jL: No.(See my story shorter) Me: (Even shorter.) jL: Don lame--- Me: Whee. Haiz, hope don't have English remedial! I VERY HUNGRY!!! jL: Me too luhs ! I want go eat with my beloved old c...

“瞳の奥がぼやけて見えない 心のそこの気持ちわあるの？ 世界の全てをてにしてとしても それがあなたの幸せなの？ Why 孤独な空を見上げるの？ Why 笑って見せてよ 言葉にするのがへたな あなたの性格解かるから 遠いむかしに何があったの？ 視線をそらすあなたの瞳に 一人で寂しい夜に抱きしめられる そんな温か知ってる？ Why どうしてかたちにこだわるの？ Why 心を開いて 大きなにもつを背負った あなたを受け入れられる力 あるわ　信じてみて 自由な人わ　ぶきようで 自由な人わ　不安で Why 孤独な空を見上げるの？ Why 笑って見せてよ 言葉にするのがへたな あなたの性格解かるから 信じてみて”　 - ayaka I Went to eat at Food Addict in Toa Payoh with Or Cair. Suuuuuuuuuuuper nice la, the chocolate fudge cake! Maybe not, if you hate it when there's too much chocolate. I don't, so I love it. Sweet and totally chocoholic. We also ordered a student meal and we chose grilled chicken spaghetti as our main course. The chicken is nice! But I think more sauce would make the whole dish tastier. Oh and, if you ever eat at Food Addict, beware not to pour too much cheese. Food Addict is also very retro. There's those retro olive oil tin cans(??) at the glass pane that you can look through into the kitchen. And guess how's lemon tea prepared? You're given a cup of lipton-...

I'm at the last chapter of Crisis Core. Zack's gonna die soon. Sad-ed. Love the theme song for this game, "Why" sang by ayaka. You know, 石欣卉 "I believe"'s original singer. She's got this chubby, young face but her voice is quite powerful. It doesn't sound as good recorded as it should when she sings live, I think. Oh ya, how the hell are we supposed to do that Chemistry Skill set 3 planning?!

"僕達は時に どうしようもない 過ちを犯し" - Ayumi Hamasaki Went to watch "The Orphanage" today. Krys told me it's very scary, but after watching the movie, Lau Lau and I think that it's not that scary. There's a few moments that are quite scary, but now that I think about it, it's an old trick - supposedly dead people suddenly moving. Pervee's super sickly-looking today. Oh and, about yesterday's grave incident... I regret it and is apologetic. If I don't I deserve to die. OK, that's not the main point, the point is, you can ask about what happened (even though I'll be slightly irritated), but do not ever mention it anymore. EVER. It's a taboo. A landmine and a major point-deduction.

Why am I obsessed with going to Junction 8's food court?! Why is the stupid scorpion boss so hard to kill in Crisis Core!? Why do I have so much homework!? WHY isn't it holidays now?! Our teenager days are the most treasured, but why are we wasting time doing homework instead of enjoying ourselves? Or is it because of the homework that such days are treasured? I definitely don't think so. Oh and, I'm having a running nose now. Whee. Not.