// dreamelesse.

I was planning to post this on my Tumblr, but screw it - this place is my home. ♥ ---------------------------- "돌이킬수 없는 시간들 무너져내리는 감정들 붙잡아도 손틈사이로 흩어져" - BoA They're like each other - kinda socially awkward. Both can judge easily and jump to unconfirmed conclusions. But one is willing to listen to advice, while the other drown in her own misery. If you tell the former about her flaws, she'll reflect on it and do something positive but the latter seems to just crawl deeper and further into her own world. So what happened when I told the former some bad news? She thinks the whole world hates her. Simply said, I meant that the former is more optimistic and the latter more pessimistic. Perhaps there are some things I shouldn't tell another person - no matter how much I think I should; no matter how relevant is it to them. Maybe sometimes I should just let it slide and (bloody crap, cheesiness) protect them from the socially- and self-inflicted pain. But I gues...

3 days of "chasing" Wonder Girls. Woah...! Can't believe I actually did that for almost half a week. Though we didn't stalk (24/7 or close to), it felt like it because all we did was waited for the appearance of the elusive Wonder Girls. Honestly, I am not a huge fan of Wonder Girls (what's more with my favourite, Sunmi, leaving), but I'm glad I tagged along at the request of my dear Pangi Chye Ja. It's great meeting new friends and what's more, getting so close in such a short time! I really hope we can stay in contact and meet up, WG-related or not. Thanks to Joelle, Felicia and PCJ, it's been fun albeit frustrating at times. Whew, it's over. I'm glad we got to see them everyday, though the photo-taking part was still impossible. At least we tried! 8th to 10th March 2010.

Well. It's one of those "Getting Jealous of Other's Lives" days. It's weird. In the beginning, I'll feel jealous of their dramatic lives and deep thoughts, then I'll feel, "Can't we live...simply?" 난 싫다. I want to stop this. It'll be one of my new year resolutions for 2010, along with "getting 3.5GPA average". 3.2 is just bullshit! It's not even enough to get into a Singapore University, what's more to say Hongik. I wish I can do better. I will! =)

I can't think of a song that represents a night like this... 슬프지만, 미소를 짓다 - a bittersweet feeling, just how I like it best. Speaking my mind really helps, it's a good lesson learn and many of the troubles in my heart...They might not had a happy ending, but alas - they've stopped giving me insomnia. Even putting to rest something that I don't have to face since Secondary 2, but still bothers me whenever I think of it. I'm gonna say this though - I'm glad to have had you, Krystalle , in my life, however short, or long, it had been. I'm really sorry that something which happened while we were young had to change us like this, but perhaps it was for the good - fairytales and pretty, romantic stuff like "best friends" don't happen to everybody. Just like fairytales, our friendship was something we believed in while we were young. We might've given up on it, but I think we would both agree that it was a precious memory. I think I actually still...

"長く続くこの道に今はいない君へ KissしたままGoodbye" - 東方神起 How do you comfort someone whose loved one is gone? 내 사랑하는 언니의 엄마가... I hate today. Really. I thought Jin's little post-it on my hard disk made my day when I woke up and saw my brother (who will be having a vacation before NS starts again). Then in the evening, I picked up my handphone and saw a message from Yiting Unnie. It's depressing...I can't believe it actually happened. I feel so guilty about saying that she didn't fight for her chance to go Korea, quarrelling (but fortunately patching things up) with her a week or so ago and I'm so sorry this had to happen to her. I'm sorry I can't visit her today... And then my Dad had to come pick a fucking fight with me. I don't know why he has to keep making all these noise about me not bathing before 9PM, not making my bed, not fixing MY laptop's media bar... STOP IT! It's not even a big deal, your incessant nagging, but today is not the day and my p...

"내 사랑이 서서히 죽어가는 병 조금 아프지만 낫고 싶은 마음은 없는걸 남김없이 기억이 지워져버려 서로가 남이었던 시간으로 되돌아가서 이젠 쉬고 싶어" - Super Junior I guess you want to rest now, Jay. In less than a week, fans from all over the world witnessed the downfall of a gradually rising boyband, 2PM. The leader - humble, charismatic and just plain hilarious Park Jaebeom - resigned from his position due to the negativity surrounding his dug-up past. The Koreans' pride were severely hurt and their revenge? Forcing him to cease all activities. As if that's not enough, there's even a petition for him to commit suicide . Childish. Rejoice, you people - he has had enough of these and is so depressed that he decided to quit 2PM on account of his love for his members, despite his management company, JYP Entertainment's official statement that they will not kick him out of the group. Aren't you guys happy? You have ruined his future and even wished for his death over comments made when he recently moved to Korea and is st...

"널 하늘에 있는 누군가 탐내서 가까이 두려고 (왜 묻지도 않고) 네 숨을 막고서 (널 갖고 싶어서) 그만 널 내 품에서 뺏어가나 봐" - Wheesung 이노래가 너무 좋아해요, 가사가 너무 예뻐서. I did a little research on how to get enrolled in Hongik University, even talked to Jae about it. I admit it's might seem a childish and pointless desire but still...It seems so complicated (there's even a Korean Proficiency test! =O) and for art courses, there's a drawing entrance exam! Aigoo, I feel depressed thinking about it. Even though I mgiht feel otherwise, drawing really is an important part of design. I'll treat my drawing classes with more respect and good attitude from now on! Being proficient in Korean... Honestly, I picked up this language just for fun, never imagining myself to become truly fluent. After watching some shows without English subtitles, I realised my listening comprehension sucks. I guess I'm still an 애송이...! 오늘 같은 날들, 슬픔을 느끼다. When it's the holidays, when I fall asleep at night thinking about what I did, when th...

"너무 미안해서 눈길 못주고 가슴아파 첫마디를 뭘로 해 생각안나" - T-Max I've been meaning to speak my mind, but I always don't know how to start. Sometimes it's because I'm afraid it'll get misunderstood, but I shouldn't be afraid because I will never be understood. It'll be messy - all over the place, it'll be long (I think) but bear with it, ne? =) OMG, I'm not even sure if this will get published succesfully...Oh well: I'm trying to find that SMS - "Let's be closer to each other". I'm really touched and glad about it, because I know you care. You'll definitely remember, we don't message one other or even contact one another for a period of time, because it's awkward. Sometimes I give up trying to make this friendship work because I don't feel you trying too. It sucks and I'm a prideful person. I used to have this best friend back in primary school days until this whole frienship crumbled because of her boyfriend, or so I t...