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"They don't know I burn" - Utada Hikaru This may sound really childish, but enough is enough. I've put off blogging about this kind of crap that I've been through for many times because I'd felt it was pointless and complaining about it is just plain immature. But you know what? Like I always say, "不要把氣留在心里，會內傷". I hope I won't keep venting this kind of pointlessly-caused anger because I don't want to become a complain queen. What the heck is wrong with singing while I'm using the computer? Just typing out that line of complain makes me feel like a kid but I insist on venting. You can rudely "help" me to shut down my computer to stop me from singing anymore but let me tell you this - I am very, very pissed off. In my head I'm swearing in every language I know but I won't turn them into words whether on paper or spoken out. I can easily avenge myself by stooping to your level and doing something equally immature, like pou

오늘은 정아언니의 생일이다! 생일축하해! That's the limit of my Korean so, yea. Unnie, please get well soon! REAL soon! I can't wait for your album already. I'm sorry I didn't buy your first album, but not to worry - I'll get it together with your second album! Please don't treat your cute little dog as your boyfriend - treat it as the "baby" whom you and your future husband will raise together! So get out now and matchmake with Yunho know more men!  행운을 빕니다 & Please be happy! P.S. Come to Singapore for another concert, yes? YES! P.S.S. Don't be almost late for your flight again - your safety will not be guaranteed! ----------------- Lately I've been doing that more and more often - wishing people, who don't know me, happy birthdays. And it's easier to write a heartfelt birthday note to a woman than a man. OK, I promise to write a really heartfelt birthday note to Yunho next time, professing my undying love for you! Anyway, it's kinda random but

One day I'll be there. I will . Jaejoong's awesome solo! Can't find the original song anywhere since It's first appearance was in 1989! (Here's the Orginal Band, "Dandellion", singing it live ) I dunno what he's singing, but it feels like a love call to all his fans. He loves singing old songs, doesn't he? "Crying" during 2nd Asia Tour, and now "그것만이 내 세상". Both are amazing, but the latter feels really heartfelt. Actually, when is he not? And Micky's touching rendition of "Love Bye Love". I ♥ this song. I keep saying I love a song and it's starting to sound fake. <__< But it's not! It's just the DongBang Effect. Since the original in Version C of "MIROTIC", I'm already in love with this song, now I'm more in love with the song because of an even ballad-er, Micky solo version. The picture in my head when I hear him sing goes something like: Playing the piano and singing in a fiel

Before anything - Singapore Poly finally sent the registration package to my house. I've not seen the contents yet actually (my dad did the seeing), but it seems like I'll have to go for a medical checkup pre-enrolment?! 왜??? o__O There's plenty (I mean it, PLENTY) of stuff to fill, too. Man, just gimme the laptop! It's another day at home for me, but it's an entire different thing in Korea! Argh, wish I were there, once again. It's becoming a habit, this! It's a waste of time and kinda retarded, but I was thinking how and what could happen to make me be there. Private jet, or a sudden phone call telling me I won a trip to Korea for DBSK's concert, etc. In my dreams...! I really pray, hope, wish, long for, dream about, ache, covet, yearn for, desire, hanker (wtf, this is a synonym of wish??), pine for DBSK to go to Malaysia, "with every fibre of my being" (pardon the extreme cheesiness - it makes me nauseous too). I admit, Singapore totally CM

"오 불같은 나의사랑 피할수 없어" - 준수! OMG You rock, dolphin! Wow, how long since I blogged already?! Yunho's birthday post is accumulating desk and this post shall finally prevent it from choking to death by dust, eww. OMG, talking really weirdly now...!!! Ahem. Well, some time...last week? Ngee Ann Poly sent me a letter. It was in an envelope. Printed on a piece of paper with watermark (Dunno why all these rich people like to do this kind of thing). Telling me my appeal to APR failed . ... ...... I should have/be feeling super pissed off and crying like a malfunctioned water fountain, but I didn't. Maybe I didn't want the course as much as I thought, or it's plainly because I did all I could and, since there won't be any regrets, accepted it. I think it's prolly the latter. Well, whichever, I shall do my best in Creative Media Design, and get into NUS! Sometimes maybe it isn't because I'm unlucky, just that I didn't put my best foot forward. But then,

Before being a pious (DBSK are Gods of the East right!) fangirl, life-dates! I think this week was rather "busy" for a still-not-schooling person like me. Went to submit my appeal letter on Monday, went out with DEAR2 on that day as well as Wednesday and then going out for an interview on Thursday (didn't succeed as always -rolls eyes-). Decided to just call the number Alicia gave me and end my poverty, boredom (I don't think the job will help since Alicia told me it's really boring) and depression once and for all! for a week. It's disheartening to keep failing to find a job - and it's not my fault I'm not experienced! <___< Can't blame these employers either - it's common sense to hire one with experience than allow a newcomer to possibly screw up big time. =/ Not getting a job and failing to get into APR by JAE...WTF! When's my luck going to chang e?! Not trying to sound melodramatic but I feel like my life is turning into a sard

Retro (kinda)! Probably "Survivor" in the future? Or the other A-side? I'm so busy these few days being pissed, getting high, getting pissed again and then getting self-high all over again that I have no time to blog. Or should I say I couldn't use the computer because my Dad was hogging it? Well, I look at Yunho and I feel better already. Even YR老婆 told me that too?! LOL. yanrong says: *ohhh *look at yunho and cheer up! Anyway. I'm OK! More when I'm not so busy.