Ignoring the fact that I haven't posted here for YEARS (totally skipping COVID-19, 3 job hops and the disbandment (AGAIN) of a boy band I truly loved???), rereading my blog posts made me realise how I've packaged my posts to seem so optimistic. I guess it's my subconscious being very aware of the fact that the blog (used to) has an audience; it was a public blog that sometimes I guess old friends who may still have my blog link could see. I honestly can't tell if I'm happier or worst than before, but these few weeks have been hard. The smallest things trigger me and my mood is extremely volatile. I write mostly (but still hardly) in my notion notebook instead since it's private, but when I get reminded of this blog the next time, I hope I am in a better state of mind.
;___; OH MY 天! Like, I can FINALLY blog. Bottling thoughts up is no good - it can make you crazy. -nods- Or so I assume. Well, anyway, you still get to use nice layouts even if high-tech Wordpress is not the system. God, I miss my wordpress. ;;__;; I mean, which idiot will choose Blogger?! Apparantly, me. Anyway...After a weekend with no computer usage, I've got my hands on some tasty cookies, tasty books (wait, what!?) and tasty songs!!!! Eheh. I also got to see some MVs (OLIVIA's "a little pain" and Tainaka Sachi's "disillusion"). Criticisms later. Let's see why I decided to use Blogger: 1. Do I look like I have a host?! 2. "Hey...This blog's already skinned!" 3. The attention-seeking, can't-wait-to-criticise, wants-to-advertise-anime part of me is KILLING MY SANITY! Right. ----------- disillusion MV - Tainaka Sachi ( http://youtube.com/watch?v=v2yM7nLP8DQ ) Enlighten me, what have a desert got to do with...y...
I'm not a poet, neither am I great writer. I can't string words together to make them read sophisticated and "chim" — I know, an utter waste of the time spent at creative writing classes when I was in primary school; time that I could have spent watching my favourite Cardcaptor Sakura, seriously. But since I have this absolutely free space for all the weirdness in me, I'm gonna make full use of it. Aside from the usual — hopefully less — childish ramblings, this medium will be where I try to practise the languages I'm learning/have learnt. Since I can't be speaking to someone native all the time, talking or writing to myself is probably the next best only method I can think of. I'm pretty confident of my Korean (not ready for some political debate anytime soon, though, thank you), but my Japanese is crap. The best way to learn is always touted to being interested and picking things up along the trail of curiosity but really, guys, learning a lan...
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